Good morning! ...yes, I am writing this in the morning. I woke up early this morning, did yoga, laundry and some other small things around the house before my doctor's appointment. I got to the doctor only to be turned around and told to come back in 2 hours. Lucky for me, that was just enough time to bottle my latest batch of Kombucha and post a short blurb.
Days like these make my tummy turn. I love to be productive. I mean, don't get me wrong, I also love to be lazy and slack off, but after a long slump, I am actually giddy to be taking care of things.
My outlook on the day is so different when I start it with yoga. My body is more open and receptive to my surroundings and my mind is more tuned in to what my body and soul need. It is so balancing and all-encompassing. I know that can sound like a load of shit to people. I too was like you once. I finally caved and really allowed myself to release and I am so happy with the results.
I turned to the mat at a time in my life where I had many questions for myself. It was the most self-reflective care I could have given myself and I think it really allowed me to dig deep and answer those hard questions of life. I find myself in a similar position now, after 4 years, and the first place I want to run is the mat. I have shed a good many tears on that mat... boy does it have stories to tell. But seriously, yoga provides an outlet for me to share whats weighing on me: physically, mentally, and emotionally.
What is so fitting is that this month a youtube yogi is hosting a 30-day challenge for creativity. I crave that. I look forward to the challenges I will be given. And this morning, I was stoked to hold crow pose for a substantial amount of time without wavering. I feel so powerful in those moments. My body deserves all the trust I can give it. It is strong and capable and she takes care of my soul.
This time last year, I was preparing to go on my first yoga retreat and I was really worried that the other participants would be so much more advanced than I was. What a stupid thing to worry about in hindsight. Every body is different and we cannot expect them all to move in the same ways. Yoga is about what is good for your body and that is so individualized and unique. All that aside, human thoughts still invade my psyche. It turned out, however, that I was the only one in the class that could hold crow pose. My instructor challenged me to start working on side crow and I really haven't believed that I could do that. I have let yoga fall by the wayside far too often this year. I have allowed my mind to convince my body that it was incapable, weak. But I was reminded this morning that that is a crock of shit. Even after some time off the mat and being out of practice, I could achieve something that requires so much strength and patience. I am inspired by myself (still humble) and know that side crow is something I should work towards. It will only be in my library of asanas if I put forth the effort. I am ready. I am empowered. I believe in my body.
Sorry for being so inspirational. But sometimes we just need a pep talk and who better to hear it from then our biggest enemy??
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